June 4, 2012

blargh

I always get so depressed when a weekend I have spent at Anth’s is ending..I try to just not let it get to me but it’s really stressful that I literally have no idea when i’ll be able to see him next. I try my best to make it work, but it’s so discouraging. The only days he has off are days I am not allowed to have off..It’s just really hard. I don’t want to quit my job, I like saving up all this money (and it would be lame to quit a job just for that) but still. I have no idea how i’ve been managing this..I plan to work there til’ the end of the year. So that means I have to keep taking off random days months in advance to ensure I at least will be able to see him once in a while >< 

I’m just in that area of life that is right before a big transition, and i’m ready for it to happen, but I have to sit here and wait until it can happen and it’s just getting difficult. Let’s just get this shit moving already! I wanna move out! I wanna see my boyfriend on a regular basis and not live an hour away! I wanna go to a new school! I wanna make new friends and do new stuff! I’m sick of waiting! LET’S GO :O

sorry for the venting…just gotta get it out. goodnight.

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